You: "When she came, things have changed for me, alam mo yun?"

Me: "Oh. Right."



Um, duh, thanks for making it clear??




I need a drink. Now.

I miss you. :(

Hi, it's been quite awhile. I know.

I have neglected this poor blog. Honestly, I've been frequently visiting this site, editing my drafts, posting entries and then deleting it right after clicking the publish hit button. But most of the time, I just lurk.

I sometimes read some of my past entries. I read all your messages left in my pm and query box.

But most of the time,yun nga, I just lurk.

And you know what I've realized?

I've realized that I'm not ready to quit this thing..not just yet. And if truth must be told, I think I consciously avoided to blog because all I did was whine. The past few years have been a bit crazy in a bittersweet way. I couldn't go forward because I kept going back and forth.
I'm so lucky that I have a wonderful set of friendly friends and a fab family that acts as my support system in times of overwhelming sadness. Sadness because I want more. Sadness because I am lonely. Sadness because I couldn't get my priorities straight. Add a dash of self doubt and all of a sudden you think everyone's against you, raking their claws on your personal life and you wince like a stabbed babboon everytime your parents, titos or titas makes a small convo about your ex or worst--about your single-ness.


In all honesty, i think I have this knack to complicate things. I mean, my issues are NOT that serious as compared to others who are going thru REAL critical matters right? I guess for the most part of it, I think I'm scared and worried.
Scared because I don't know where my life's heading and the bitterness and self loathing hang on to me like a leech.
I hate challenges but I don't back down when faced with one. I devote serious effort to be a better version of my sulky everyday self.


Anyway, I'm so glad the stupidest year is over, the year two-thousand-and-HATE.


And helloooo, 2009!!

I kinda have a good feeling about 2009. There's something so exciting and err..new.. about this year. Feeling ko it's like having, say, a brand new book. You can smell fresh ink from the pages, yung feel nung cover, the book's spine...oh crap. *i always feel like this every new year.*

I don't have any serious resolutions though. I think resolutions on a new year has become a bit meaningless, more like a cliche na. Hello, you can do something different any day of the year diba.

And besides, I usually forget them as soon as february or march steps in.

But then again, there are certainly a few things I would like to *remind* myself and i think that would be another blog post altogether.

So there.

And for the record at malamang hindi ko na uultitin ito:

I stopped blogging dahil i felt i made this an outlet to allow myself to drown in self pity. I whine here like a bitch who's suffering from a serious case of back sliding.

I kinda stopped dahil sa totoo lang, paulit ulit na lang. Nakakasawa ka na at panahon pa ni Bentong yang issue na yan.

At sa dahil ayokong gumawa ng new year's resolution, hindi ko mapangako na eto na ang huling emotional blog diarrhea ko.



Pero sa ngayon, pang back-read ka na lang.



P/S: I might post a blog intermittently, wala naman pressure please.:)
P/P/S: Tsk. Its not about Plurk. (annoyed) I don't Plurk that much na nga eh.. (headspin)

felony. crime. murder.



on most days, we think that life is fcuking easy, then we realize that it's not.
i'm trying not to think excessively.



Maybe i'm just bored.


Going back to being indifferent. I go.

Yet again, the friendly friends were given the opportunity to visit and give help to the Missionaries of Charity.

We scheduled our packing day last November 30 at Icar's place. Packing Day, meaning pack goodies for 700 kids, collect 150 toys from Icar's brother and account donations from our generous parents, siblings and workmates. (God Bless you all!)

Hi I'm Aina.


And I'm a Plurk a.d.d.i.c.t.


*******

so i've been a bit busy and the entries I want to post keep piling up. I know I am completely ignoring this blog. I have
neglected my other social networking duties as well. I am now suffering from an online erratic behavior.

And that's all because of Plurk.

For those of you who still use abacus to compute, Plurk is a micro-blogging tool. Yes, it's like Twitter, Jaiku et al. To
be completely honest, I joined Plurk because of the dancing banana (w/c by the way gets irritating pala sometimes). Second reason is that two of my friends are Plurkers already. I wasn't really impressed that much the first time I tried using it. It was more like a chatroom or to some, a forum. The addiction actually kicked in when most of the friendly friends started joining in. I tried convincing my Twitter friends to join and all I got were blank stares(i am imagining here). I guess you cannot convince others that easily with just 140 characters.


Anyway, I plurk while eating, plurk while watching, plurk while pee-ing, plurk while smoking, plurk while coffee-ing and the bestest-- i plurk while working.


I plurk for hours. Once a plurk is posted it will stretch into a multiple threaded replies, faster than you can say PLURK.
I believe in good karma so I reply to my friend's plurks when they post something that really arouse my interest/curiosity or sometimes just to say hi. I cannot totally blame my sleep deprivation on plurk because I have been an insomniac for like forever but instead of getting my usual 5 hours or so, I only sleep for 2-3 hours or minsan..i barely sleep. Aside from using my laptop while plurking, my phone and Ipod touch are set to plurk homepge. seriously, I am that addicted.

When friends started pointing out my erratic behavior,that was the only time I realized that maybe i have a
persistent compulsive urge to plurk. Like when we were out one time and they noticed I was busy typing on my fone.I
heard Nana commenting "she's Plurking again! Naku, Aina, nobody will reply to your post because half of your plurk friends are here". Of course, I vehemently denied this and pretended that I was "just texting" but my face screams "guilty guilty guilty!".


I'm not saying Plurk is bad for my health (although I am actually nursing a fever right now-totally Plurk unrelated!) nor am I expressing my unhappiness or protesting against it. I LOVE it despite being a complete nerd. I love it despite me going gaga as soon as I hear the plurk alert sound. I still love it kahit nobody replies to my :

ainavdl is brushing her hair. (rock)

ainavdl says oh look. the sun. its yellow. nice. (dance)

just got home from 'the concert'.

I swear i'm not gonna watch in an open field ever again. Ever. Ever. Evereverever.


And I still hate Rihanna. Forever ever ever ever and ever.


i'll blog about this some other time. Super tired.

....you can go beyond self-honesty...

because lying to yourself can give you SERENITY....

sometimes.


:'(

i'm a slacker, oui?

and you all think that i should update, oui?

and you're asking what's new with me, oui?

Well, PLENTY!!!!!!

I'm gonna keep this short muna, I have the whole of November to pester you with my random rAmblings, but I just have to say this...

I CAN't WAIT FOR THIS MOVIE:

The TEXTpectation is killing me:(


Utang na loob, sana mag reply ka na.


I hate hate TEXTpecting:(

Hi there! I'm sorry for the series of short posts slash teasers I've been posting lately.
My supah busy life has been exhilarating and tiring at the same time, I have lots to blog about but I just need the time to write/publish them;)

And to answer your queries for the nth time, NO, I'm not abandoning this blog. In fact, I renewed my premium account here in UpSaid for another one whole year.

Naisip ko kasi na I still want to continue my relationship with this blog. Sana ganun din kadali sa ibang relationship noh.

Channeling Jesa's emo phase? Hope not.;)


P/S: We had an event last night for bloggers here in the Philippines. I'm just lucky PAGCOR sponsored their event and I get to see all the bloggers na talagang binibista ko. There was this blogger na akala ko talaga all the while babae, lalake pala. hihihihi;) I hope they enjoyed the event we sponsored for them kahit medyo may palpak-asyons sa umpisa...;)

Scary thing happened at work yesterday.

When I got into the office last night to retrieve my things, I saw that somebody left a "gift" on my desk.

Apparently, there's this guy from another department who gave me a Cadbury chocolate.

I have no idea WHY someone would do that!

Mr. Sustagen suggested, " Baka may admirer ka."

Unang una hindi ko concern kung SINO ang nagbigay. My ultimate question was WHYwould someone give me a CADBURY chocolate??!!

....was a missed opportunity.


Come to think of it, maybe it was really meant to be missed anyway.;(